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Tuesday of the Other June
by Norma Fox Mazer
"Be good, be good, be good, be good, my Junie," my mother sang as she combed my
hair; a song, a story, a croon, a plea. "It's just you and me, two women alone in the world,
June darling of my heart; we have enough troubles getting by, we surely don't need a
single one more, so you keep your sweet self out of fighting and all that bad stuff. People
can be little-hearted, but turn the other cheek, smile at the world, and the world'll surely
We stood in front of the mirror as she combed my hair, combed and brushed and smoothed. Her head came just above mine; she said when I grew another inch, she'd stand on a stool to brush my hair. "I'm not giving up this pleasure!" And she laughed her long honey laugh.
My mother was April, my grandmother had been May, I was June. "And someday," said my mother, "you'll have a daughter of your own. What will you name her?" "January!" I'd yell when I was little. "February! No, November!" My mother laughed her honey laugh. She had little emerald eyes that warmed me like the sun.
Every day when I went to school, she went to work. "Sometimes I stop what I'm doing," she said, "lay down my tools, and stop everything, because all I can think about is you.
Wondering what you're doing and if you need me. Now, Junie, if anyone ever bothers you—" "—I walk away, run away, come on home as fast as my feet will take me," I recited.
"Yes. You come to me. You just bring me your trouble, because I'm here on this earth to love you and take care of you."
I was safe with her. Still, sometimes I woke up at night and heard footsteps slowly creeping up the stairs. It wasn't my mother, she was asleep in the bed across the room, so it was robbers, thieves, and murderers, creeping slowly... slowly... slowly toward my bed.
I stuffed my hand into my mouth. If I screamed and woke her, she'd be tired at work tomorrow. The robbers and thieves filled the warm darkness and slipped across the floor more quietly than cats. Rigid under the covers, I stared at the shifting dark and bit my knuckles and never knew when I fell asleep again.
In the morning we sang in the kitchen. "Bill Grogan's goat! Was feelin' fine! Ate three red shirts, right off the line!" I made sandwiches for our lunches, she made pancakes for breakfast, but all she ate was one pancake and a cup of coffee. "Gotta fly, can't be late."
I wanted to be rich and take care of her. She worked too hard; her pretty hair had gray in it that she joked about. "Someday," I said, "I'll buy you a real house, and you'll never work in a pot factory again."
1 "Such delicious plans," she said. She checked the windows to see if they were locked.
"Do you have your key?" I lifted it from the chain around my neck.
"And you'll come right home from school and—" "—I won't light fires or let strangers into the house, and I won't tell anyone on the phone that I'm here alone," I finished for her.
"I know, I'm just your old worrywart mother." She kissed me twice, once on each cheek.
"But you are my June, my only June, the only June."
She was wrong; there was another June. I met her when we stood next to each other at the edge of the pool the first day of swimming class in the Community Center.
"What's your name?" She had a deep growly voice.
"June. What's yours?" She stared at me. "June."
"We have the same name."
"No we don't. June is my name, and I don't give you permission to use it. Your name is Fish Eyes." She pinched me hard. "Got it, Fish Eyes?" The next Tuesday, the Other June again stood next to me at the edge of the pool. "What's your name?" "June."
"Fish Eyes, you are really stupid." She shoved me into the pool.
The swimming teacher looked up, frowning, from her chart. "No one in the water yet."
Later, in the locker room, I dressed quickly and wrapped my wet suit in the towel. The Other June pulled on her jeans. "You guys see that bathing suit Fish Eyes was wearing?
Her mother found it in a trash can."
"She did not!" The Other June grabbed my fingers and twisted. "Where'd she find your bathing suit?" "She bought it, let me go."
"Poor little stupid Fish Eyes is crying. Oh, boo hoo hoo, poor little Fish Eyes."
"Your name is Fish Eyes." She pinched me hard.
After that, everyone called me Fish Eyes. And every Tuesday, wherever I was, there was also the Other June—at the edge of the pool, in the pool, in the locker room. In the water, she swam alongside me, blowing and huffing, knocking into me. In the locker room, she stepped on my feet, pinched my arms, hid my blouse, and knotted my braids together.
She had large square teeth; she was shorter than I was, but heavier, with bigger bones and square hands. If I met her outside on the street, carrying her bathing suit and towel, she'd walk toward me, smiling a square, friendly smile. "Oh well, if it isn't Fish Eyes." Then she'd punch me, blam! her whole solid weight hitting me.
I didn't know what to do about her. She was training me like a dog. After a few weeks of this, she only had to look at me, only had to growl, "I'm going to get you, Fish Eyes," for my heart to slink like a whipped dog down into my stomach. My arms were covered with bruises. When my mother noticed, I made up a story about tripping on the sidewalk.
I tried to slow down time. Especially on the weekends, I stayed close by my mother, doing everything with her, shopping, cooking, cleaning, going to the laundromat. "Aw, sweetie, go play with your friends."
"No, I'd rather be with you." I wouldn't look at the clock or listen to the radio (they were always telling you the date and the time). I did special magic things to keep the day from going away, rapping my knuckles six times on the bathroom door six times a day and never, ever touching the chipped place on my bureau. But always I woke up to the day before Tuesday, and always, no matter how many times I circled the worn spot in the living-room rug or counted twenty-five cracks in the ceiling, Monday disappeared and once again it was Tuesday.
The Other June got bored with calling me Fish Eyes. Buffalo Brain came next, but as soon as everyone knew that, she renamed me Turkey Nose.
Now at night it wasn't robbers creeping up the stairs, but the Other June, coming to torment me. When I finally fell asleep, I dreamed of kicking her, punching, biting, pinching. In the morning I remembered my dreams and felt brave and strong. And then I remembered all the things my mother had taught me and told me.
Be good, be good, be good; it's just us two women alone in the world.... Oh, but if it weren't, if my father wasn't long gone, if we'd had someone else to fall back on, if my mother's mother and daddy weren't dead all these years, if my father's daddy wanted to know us instead of being glad to forget us—oh, then I would have punched the Other June with a frisky heart, I would have grabbed her arm at poolside and bitten her like the dog she had made of me.
One night, when my mother came home from work, she said, "Junie, listen to this. We're moving!" "Junie, listen to this. We're moving!" Alaska, I thought. Florida. Arizona. Someplace far away and wonderful, someplace without the Other June.
"Wait till you hear this deal. We are going to be caretakers, trouble-shooters for an eightfamily apartment building. Fifty-six Blue Hill Street. Not janitors; we don't do any of the heavy work. April and June, Trouble-shooters, Incorporated. If a tenant has a complaint or a problem, she comes to us and we either take care of it or call the janitor for service.
And for that little bit of work, we get to live rent free!" She swept me around in a dance.
"Okay? You like it? I do!" So. Not anywhere else, really. All the same, maybe too far to go to swimming class?
"Can we move right away? Today?" 3 "Gimme a break, sweetie. We've got to pack, do a thousand things. I've got to line up someone with a truck to help us. Six weeks, Saturday the fifteenth." She circled it on the calendar. It was the Saturday after the last day of swimming class.
Soon, we had boxes lying everywhere, filled with clothes and towels and glasses wrapped in newspaper. Bit by bit, we cleared the rooms, leaving only what we needed right now.
The dining-room table staggered on a bunched-up rug, our bureaus inched toward the front door like patient cows. On the calendar in the kitchen, my mother marked off the days until we moved, but the only days I thought about were Tuesdays—Awfuldays.
Nothing else was real except the too fast passing of time, moving toward each Tuesday... away from Tuesday... toward Tuesday...
And it seemed to me that this would go on forever, that Tuesdays would come forever and I would be forever trapped by the side of the pool, the Other June whispering Buffalo Brain Fish Eyes Turkey Nose into my ear, while she ground her elbow into my side and smiled her square smile at the swimming teacher.
No more swimming class. No more Awfuldays.... No more Tuesdays.
And then it ended. It was the last day of swimming class. The last Tuesday. We had all passed our tests, and, as if in celebration, the Other June only pinched me twice. "And now," our swimming teacher said, "all of you are ready for the Advanced Class, which starts in just one month. I have a sign-up slip here. Please put your name down before you leave." Everyone but me crowded around. I went to the locker room and pulled on my clothes as fast as possible. The Other June burst through the door just as I was leaving. "Goodbye," I yelled, "good riddance to bad trash!" Before she could pinch me again, I ran past her and then ran all the way home, singing, "Goodbye... goodbye...
goodbye, good riddance to bad trash!" Later, my mother carefully untied the blue ribbon around my swimming class diploma.
"Look at this! Well, isn't this wonderful! You are on your way, you might turn into an Olympic swimmer, you never know what life will bring."
"I don't want to take more lessons."
"Oh, sweetie, it's great to be a good swimmer." But then, looking into my face, she said, "No, no, no, don't worry, you don't have to."
The next morning, I woke up hungry for the first time in weeks. No more swimming class. No more Baddays and Awfuldays. No more Tuesdays of the Other June. In the kitchen, I made hot cocoa to go with my mother's corn muffins. "It's Wednesday, Mom," I said, stirring the cocoa. "My favorite day."
"Since when?" "Since this morning." I turned on the radio so I could hear the announcer tell the time, the temperature, and the day.
Thursday for breakfast I made cinnamon toast, Friday my mother made pancakes, and on Saturday, before we moved, we ate the last slices of bread and cleaned out the peanut butter jar.
4 "Some breakfast," Tilly said. "Hello, you must be June." She shook my hand. She was a friend of my mother's from work; she wore big hoop earrings, sandals, and a skirt as dazzling as a rainbow. She came in a truck with John to help us move our things.
John shouted cheerfully at me, "So you're moving." An enormous man with a face covered with little brown bumps. Was he afraid his voice wouldn't travel the distance from his mouth to my ear? "You looking at my moles?" he shouted, and he heaved our big green flowered chair down the stairs. "Don't worry, they don't bite. Ha, ha, ha!" Behind him came my mother and Tilly balancing a bureau between them, and behind them I carried a lamp and the round, flowered Mexican tray that was my mother's favorite. She had found it at a garage sale and said it was as close to foreign travel as we would ever get.
The night before, we had loaded our car, stuffing in bags and boxes until there was barely room for the two of us. But it was only when we were in the car, when we drove past Abdo's Grocery, where they always gave us credit, when I turned for a last look at our street—it was only then that I understood we were truly going to live somewhere else, in another apartment, in another place mysteriously called Blue Hill Street.
Tilly's truck followed our car.
"Oh, I'm so excited," my mother said. She laughed. "You'd think we were going across the country."
Our old car wheezed up a long, steep hill. Blue Hill Street. I looked from one side to the other, trying to see everything.
My mother drove over the crest of the hill. "And now—ta da!—our new home."
"Which house? Which one?" I looked out the window and what I saw was the Other June. She was sprawled on the stoop of a pink house, lounging back on her elbows, legs outspread, her jaws working on a wad of gum. I slid down into the seat, but it was too late. I was sure she had seen me.
My mother turned into a driveway next to a big white building with a tiny porch. She leaned on the steering wheel. "See that window there, that's our living-room window...
and that one over there, that's your bedroom... " We went into the house, down a dim, cool hall. In our new apartment, the wooden floors clicked under our shoes, and my mother showed me everything. Her voice echoed in the empty rooms. I followed her around in a daze. Had I imagined seeing the Other June?
Maybe I'd seen another girl who looked like her. A double. That could happen.
"Ho yo, where do you want this chair?" John appeared in the doorway. We brought in boxes and bags and beds and stopped only to eat pizza and drink orange juice from the carton.
"June's so quiet, do you think she'll adjust all right?" I heard Tilly say to my mother.
"Oh, definitely. She'll make a wonderful adjustment. She's just getting used to things."
But I thought that if the Other June lived on the same street as I did, I would never get used to things.
"Very nice of you, June M. OK, June T., take your seat. I'll try not to get you two Junes mixed up."
I sat down next to her. She pinched my arm. "Good riddance to bad trash," she mocked.
I was back in the Tuesday swimming class, only now it was worse, because every day would be Awfulday. The pinching had already started. Soon, I knew, on the playground and in the halls, kids would pass me, grinning. "Hiya, Fish Eyes."